Changing

God I hate my life.
I hate boys. I hate boys who think they are wayyy to good for you. Just a note: NO YOU ARNT. I'm pretty sure I'm the one that's hotter than you.
I hate embrassing myself. I hate doing it in front of the boy I liked.
I hate losing control whilst drinking. I made out with my gay guy friend. Awarkard.
I hate having no control over what I spend my money on. At this rate I'll never save anything.
I hate spending money on food. Food... Enough said.
I hate food. It makes me fat.
I hate my fat.

I've put on 6kg since feburay. Fuck. How? I lost control. But that changes. Right now. It all changes.