About Me

New Zealand
I used to be thin. I used to like my body. Not anymore. Emily. 18. I live to dance. Currently in New Zealand but planning on getting out shortly. Come join me on my journey to perfection. CW: 116 HW: 124 LW: 108 GW 1: 110 GW 2: 105 GW 3: 100 UGW: 95... for now.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Freaking out...

Oh my lord.
I'm freaking out right now. Seriously, my heart is beating way to fast and i can think straight.

Ive eaten wayy too much. I'm not empty anymore. I didn't even go to the gym this morning. I'm at my office job so there is no way i can purge here.

fuck.fuck.fuck.

Super charged worked out tonight.

I'm sure my weight hasn't changed. If i could get down to 117 by Friday I would be so happy.

I'm still freaking out. And to make today better I have gone over my credit card limit. Fuckkkk. I am in so much debt, yet I'm going to the USA in 3 months so I need money for then. Who knows wayys to get money quickly??

ahhh my life=down the drain.

fail fail fail.

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