Happy.

I'm done with this trying to recover shit.

I need to get it all off. I want my back bones back. I want my collars bones back. I want it all back.
I know ive been sinking into a dark cloud of god knows what. I couldn't think. I was really thinking about ending it all. We have alot of pils in my house that would do it.

I'm feeling clearer now. I know what I want. I want it all back.

Plan for tomorrow:
Clean house.
Dance practice.
Ab workout.
Gym.
Teach dance.
Dance class.

So three workouts in one day. Makes me very happy. And all I want us to be happy with myself again.