Binge. Binge. Binge.

Fuck.

Day 3

Sorry I didn't post last night, I was super busy.
Today is day 3 of the skinny girl diet which is 400 cal. I'm going to take one serving if cerial to school which is 122 cal, which means I have 278 cal left for dinner. Gonna go do some dancing now and then gym for two hours tonight.

Yesterday was... Well I was just having a really bad day. I ate 322ish cal :( that's 22 more than I was meant to. But I burned it off with dancing last night. I had cerial and then 200 cal worth if sushi. I didn't go to the gym though, my alarm went off, I turned it off and then fell back alseep. Grrrr I felt so yuck for the rest of the day, most probley why I got the sushi.

Charr - I'm trying to put the link up but I'm blogging from my iPod and for some reason it won't let me. I'm gonna try get onto blogger on my familys computer tonight!

I will weight myself tonight at the gym.... God if I havent lost at all... I'm gonna be so angry.

Stay Strong, Stay Thin.

Emily.
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Day 1 - skinny girl diet

Hey guys

so I stuck with my 400 cal today, but only just. I had a proten bar (150) and scrambled eggs on toast (around 250). Blagh I shouldn't of had the protein bar. I weighed myself this morning.... 122.5. I nearly cryed. I don't know how I let myself get this fat. Ewww I'm so grossed out. But the thing is, I don't look it. I look and feel like 116. But the scale never lies. Went to the gym this morning, it's actully my favourite place to go alone, I love a good workout. I gymed for like an hour. It felt so good after. I just got back from dance which was 1 and a half hours. Hell yes that 2 and a half hours hard out exercise today!

After school today at stage challenge practice we were all comparing our weights. One girl was 68kg and another was 59kg. I'm not sure what that is when converted into pounds but I think that's just gross. I couldn't live with myself if I weighed that much. I mean at the moment I'm like 55kg and I nearly cryed when I found out. It just made me want to lose weight even more. Thank god these first few pounds are the easest to lose.

Tomorrow it's 300 cal. Hmmm not sure what I will eat. I think I might just have one serving of cerial without milk (122 cal) for after school before dance. But I will not go over. No matter what. God I remember the days when I would only eat 300 cal. It used to be so easy.

Stay Strong, Stay Thin.

Emily.
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Skinny girl diet

I was just looking around the diet forums on prettythin.com and I found something called 'the skinny girl diet'. It's kind like the ABC diet but nit as harsh and it only lasts for 30 days. It's meant to work really well. I'm gonna try it starting tomorrow.

 
1: 400
2: 300
3: 400
4: 500
4: 450
6: 650
7: 650
8: 400
9: 300
10: 400
11: 500
12: 450
13: 650
14: 700
15: 400
16: 300
17: 400
18: 450
19: 500
20: 650
21: 700
22: 400
23: 300
24: 450
25: 500
26: 450
27: 650
28: 700
29: 400
30: FAST.

Seems easy enough. Shall update tomorrow my lovelys. Sorry I haven't been commenting in any of you blogs! I am reading them though and I'm sure they are the only things keeping me sane. I'm going to try and make mote if an effort! Blagh school tomorrow but YAY because I'm gonna be so busy I'll have no time to eat.

Off to finaly get some sleep before I have to get up and go to the gym before school.

Stay Strong, Stay Thin.

Emily.
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Tiny thighs never lie

I want to feel pain.
I want to be shakey.
I want to feel dizzy.
I want to feel like a feather.
I want to float.
I want to be empty.
I want to see bones.
I want to be thin.

And I will. Tomorrow is crunch day, the day I truly start trying because to be honst, I really havnt been try hard enough.

Quick post

Just a quick post, I've gotta go to the gym. Today wasn't to bad. I only ate when I was forced to and in front of people. I had one hashbrown fir breakfast, a chocolate crossiant for lunch. I just got home and my sister made chocolate chip muffins and I had one :( but I cut up a whole onion and fryed it up. I was going to make a onion and cashew wrap. But I didn't. I chucked it out and walked out of my kitchen.
Gonna go do a kick boxing and then a yoga class at the gym. Plus I did like 3 hours of dancing today.

Stay Strong, Stay Thin

Emily.
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Bfhogcdrhivf

I worked all day again :) and I didn't eat any of my cafes food! This is a major first. I usually always give in a steal a muffin or something, but I didn't :) during my lunch break I went and got a 6 inch vegie delight sub from subway. I wish I hadn't, but it's only around 200 cal and I resist from getting buger king or MacDonalds so I don't feel too bad. But I dint end up going to the gym :( oh well I'll just go hard out tomorrow. Tonight my friends are coming over and I'm having a movie night/sleepover. I've told them that we are making pizzas. This is hood because I can get away with only making half a pizza and then only eating half of that. Yay.

EDIT

that is what I was meant to post last night, but my friend jaz came into my room so I had to quickly put I iPod touch down and tbh I forgot about this post.

We didn't end up making pizzas like I wanted...
We were out getting movies when one of my friends suggested that we get MacDonalds because it would be easier than going to the supermarket and getting stuff for pizzas as I was running low in food at home. Of course everyone thought it was a GREAT idea, apart from me. Then at macdonalds I had a moment of insanety. Insted if getting a hambuger, small frys and a water like I should have, I got a hambuger, medium frys and a small frozen coke! Argh I totally just stop using my brain. Fuck.
This means two hours at the gym tonight. Plus I'm doing like 4 hours of dancing today :) as long as I eat under 600 cal, I'll be sweet,
I want tomorrow to hurry up. It's pay day and it's gonna be awesome. It means I go can shopping and go to ballet this weekend :)

Stay Strong, Stay Thin.

Emily.
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