How long before i crash?

Its good at the moment. Everything is good. But how long can it last?
How long until i give in and binge till i cant even breathe? How long until i give up on exercising? How much longer can i last?


I thought that yesterday would have have a massive fail. But it wasn't.
Current weight: 117! Ive lost 4 pounds!
I thought i would have put on weight as the day before yesterday was kinda bad and yesterday i ate like 10 Christmas chocolates, 3 cookies and half a packet of large chips. But i did exercise a bit yesterday. I went to the gym for an hour and then walked home from work which was a 40 minute power walk. I feel so happy, so in control. But i still look fat :( I have a long way to go.

Today all I've had so far is a coffee (with 2 sugars). I'm going to go to the gym soon for an hour and then i have work tonight. I will eat something before i go to work otherwise i might die as its a massive dinner for 200 and it's an 11 hour shift (4pm - 3am) which just kills me normally.

The thing i hate most about this is not having anyone to talk to. I tryed to talk to my friend last night cause shes always going on about how fat she is and how she wants to lose weight so badly. But she just laughed at me and called me crazy when i told her that there was over 200 cal in a small bottle of sprite. Some friend she is. But i know i have my blog. Even though no one may read it, i know that it wont laugh at me and i can speak my mind. It helps me everytime i think about binging. I think 'grrr if i eat this im going to have to blog about it'. It works so well.

Sorry im kinda in a emotional mood.

Stay strong.
Peace.

XX

Fail

Yesterday may just be the biggest fail of my life.

I ate:
1 slice egg pie
2 small chocolates
2 doughnuts
8 small pieces of sushi
half a bag of chips

I drank:
1 coke zero
1 Diet coke
Miso soup
4 vodka cruisers
water
apple cider vinegar.

:( Do i have no control? FML.

Oh well I'm starting new today. I was going to do a 24 hour fast but when i got up i was feeling sick from the drinks last night and i had to eat something. I didn't want to but i had 45 minutes to kill before my hair appointment and i was feeling like if i didn't eat i would cry/faint/throw up.
So i went to a little cafe and had a fruit smoothie and scrambled eggs on toast, but i only ate half of it. I'm feeling much better now. No more food for the rest of the day. Just water.

I'm going to the gym soon which should hopefully burn off some fat and i have work tonight which will keep my mind off food. Tomorrow morning i have a dance lesson so ill have a piece of fruit or something low carb before that. Then no food for the rest of the day.

I will weight myself on sunday night and hopefully it will be good.

Stay Strong.
Peace.

XX

New day..

So last night i failed...

I came home from dancing and was craving scrambled eggs. So i caved in and had scrambled eggs on a peice of toast. Then i had ice cream.....

Bad. Bad. Bad

But today is a new day and im starting my first ever fast! Its only going to be a 24 hour one just to prove to myself that i can do it. I had a coffee this morning (no sugar) and i plan on just drinking water and one sf redbull for when i go to the gym. I just cant wait to have the empty feeling of nothing in my stomach. I know its going to feel amazing.

Then tomorrow night im having drinks so all im going to eat is a cup of vegtable soup (10 cal) and maybe a small falafel salad because i do have a ballet class.

Last night whilst looking for thinspo and tips on the internet i came across prettythin.com.
I found it very inspiring and helpful.

Stay strong.
Peace
XX

Think thin....

Welcome!

This is my very first post in what i hope to be a blog that will inspire others and keep me going strong. A little bit about me: 16, live in New Zealand and one day i will be thinner.

Today i started my new diet. It doesnt really have any rules. I just do what i want to, mainly avoiding carbs, eating 1 - 2 small meals a day and atleast 30 minutes exercise each day.
This blog is a way for me to keep track and monitior my eating and exercising whilst getting thinner. On here i will write almost everyday about what i ate, my exercise, how im looking and how im feeling. I dont want to get ana or anything. I just hate my body and its wobbly bits. My goal weight is 50 kg.

Day 1

Weight: 55.1 kg
Food intake: 2 chocolate biscuts, a small falafel pita, flat white with 2 sugars
Exercise: 1 hour dance class

If anyone has any tips then please comment!

Stay strong
Peace

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