- New Zealand
- I used to be thin. I used to like my body. Not anymore. Emily. 18. I live to dance. Currently in New Zealand but planning on getting out shortly. Come join me on my journey to perfection. CW: 116 HW: 124 LW: 108 GW 1: 110 GW 2: 105 GW 3: 100 UGW: 95... for now.
Monday, July 19, 2010
I like the way it hurts
These are photos of me at my school ball which was 3 weeks ago. Im the one in the red dress. Ugh i look fat. Gross. I had a mint night though :)
So i ate around 600 cal today. Not bad. Today i was googling different kinds of fasts and diets with my friend. She kinda knows about my troubles with food and i know in the past shes had troubles herself. She was wanting to do the lemon detox diet but i dont think she is. I told her to just do a water fast as if you are commited you can lose quite a few pounds and she was like but dont you get hungry? DUHH thats the point! So tomorrow im gonna water fast. Just a small 24 hour one to get me back into the swing of things. Then 400 - 500 the next day? maybe.
I cant really exercise at the moment :( My shin splints are playing up and i can usually handle them but i face planted down liek 12 stairs last weekend and twisted my ankle so i cant run or dance :( This is meant to be week 2 of my dancing break anyway. But im just going tyo do millions of sit ups insted.
I dont really wanna talk about what happened whilst i didnt blog. Uggg i dont even want to think about it. Ive put on wayy ro much weight as i ate like a normal person and thats all im gonna say. I just want to forget about it and move on.
My life has hit a wall. Its all school work and then work. Ive gota get out. So this weekend im going out, not eating, getting wasted and gonna be reckless. I want to be more fun like i used to be.
Im glad im back though.
Stay Strong, Stay Thin.