About Me

New Zealand
I used to be thin. I used to like my body. Not anymore. Emily. 18. I live to dance. Currently in New Zealand but planning on getting out shortly. Come join me on my journey to perfection. CW: 116 HW: 124 LW: 108 GW 1: 110 GW 2: 105 GW 3: 100 UGW: 95... for now.

Monday, March 8, 2010

115 days till thin day

Fast is going good. Little bit hungry but i think ill be fine :)
Im going to try to fast all day tomorrow as well because when i was at the gym this morning my weight was: 119!!!!!!

I FULLY DONT UNDERSTAND HOW/WHY/WHAT??????????????
Fuckkkkkkkkk.
And thats why im fasting tomorrow as well.

Anyway i have 115 days till my school ball. 115 days to get to 95 pounds. 115 days to get thin. I so can do this! Last year i got down to 108 pounds but then i put all my weight back on during break :(
So my plan is:
- Eat under 600 cal everyday
- atleast 1 24 hour fast a week
- eat hardly any carbs
- atleast 18 hour exercise per week
- Water water water

It so can work. I will look amazing. Maybe i might even get asked to go with someone this year! or not... I dunno. I tend to repel boys. Its not that i dont like them cause i do, it just they dont like me. But thats alright as i am carrer focused. Well thats what i tell myself when really i am dying inside when im the only one out of ALL MY FRIENDS who doesnt have a date. I hardly the fattest one, not the uglyst one so what the hell more do i have to do?

Get thin thats what.

Got so much homework to do tonight so i better go get started :(

Love you all.

Stay Strong, Stay Thin.

Emily.
XX

2 comments:

  1. thanks for the comment! i hope i'll get thin in no time! because i can't stand to look at myself in the mirror right now... it's horrible.

    good luck on reaching your goal! you can do it! i'm hear for you. i'll try to talk you out of any of those evil foods if you need me to. stay strong. =]

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  2. 115 is plenty of time, you can totally do this :] Keep it up.

    xoxo

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