I'm feeling better today. I feel like I'm getting the old non eating me back. It feels good.
Tomorrow is mothers day, but i'm busy all day so I took my mum out this morning. She's never been been to starbucks before so we went there for coffee. I had a rasberry and white chocolate muffin and a grande ice tea passion flavour. It was so good and filled me up so well. Then I took to get a manicure as she loves them. I love my mum. I really do. She's the reason why I eat alot of the times as she's hates seeing me not eat. It hurts me to hurt her.
I just had a coffee (2 sugars) and 2 small cookies. That's all. No more food. At work tonight I'll most probely have some coffees as I am the barrista. It just keeps me going through the night. No time for gym or dancing today :( i'm gonna try to fit in some sit ups tonight. Gotta get my flat stomach back. It hurts not having it. I just want to slice off all my fat.
121.6 oh well that's Iike two pounds. By Friday I want to be down to 115. Because on Saturday we have our after show party for my schools musical, fiddler on the roof. I want to look amazing and I plan on getting wasted! I know I won't be able to get down to what I really wish I was (100) but as long as it's not higher than 115 I'll be happy.
My school ball is seven weeks away so that means I have seven weeks to get down to 100. I so can do that. I have to. I will be the thinst most fabulous looking person there. I have to. I will be.
Stay Strong, Stay Thin.