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New Zealand
I used to be thin. I used to like my body. Not anymore. Emily. 18. I live to dance. Currently in New Zealand but planning on getting out shortly. Come join me on my journey to perfection. CW: 116 HW: 124 LW: 108 GW 1: 110 GW 2: 105 GW 3: 100 UGW: 95... for now.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

What a shame we all became such fragile, broken things

Sleepovers = bad. evil. horrible.

I ate some chocolate. But i didn't totally binge on it. Control is getting better. My friend, Amy, the one who thinks I'm anorexic brought me and all my friends McDonald's hot fudge Sunday's. All my friends would have kicked my butt if i didn't eat it. So i did. UGH. It was a downward spiral from there. But yesterday, i ate less than half of my bowl of pasta! I was eating and i though 'I don't need this. I don't want this'. So i chucked it out :)

But today is a new day.
All i will drink is water and the coffee (with 2 sugars) that i have already had.
All i will eat is the one vege taco that i will have before ballet.
Exercise i will do is my ballet class. So glad that ballet is starting again!

Not going to weigh myself today. I'm to scared.

If ever in need of some thinspo, watch 'Girl, Interrupted'. Amazing. I didnt eat any more chocolate after watching it.

Stay Strong, Stay Thin.


1 comment:

  1. Okay if you go a few blogs back on mine, you'll see i wrote "basically" the same things. Sleepovers seem to DEPRESS me and being around people who eat FUCKING CHIPS + CANDY BARS + SODA and the calories go ABSOLUTELY NO WHERE, well it causes me to binge. i am sorry that you had the same troubles as me, i wish you the best.